have you ever felt as though you were a little kid and you had a pet puppy and you love that puppy with all of your tiny little heart and then one day you go outside and you see that that puppy got hit by a car and bled to death? Yeah that is pretty good comparison to how i feel right now.

I have let go of the greatest most perfect thing that has ever happened to me in my entire life. I mutauly let go of something that is irreplaceable to me right now. Yes i probly am being selfish for complaining about something as this but i HATE myself right now for making such a rash decion. Ok i don’t hate myself, that was stupid, but if i could only turn back the clock then i would. Most of you prolly don’t even know what i am talking about. I don’t care this feels good. The emptiness in my stomach is beginning to fill again. It is 2 in the morining and i have thought about the exact same thing for about 4 hours now. It is killing me. But there is nothing i can do about it now but wait and pray. This is what was wanted by both. If you don’t know what i am talking about get over it. I am in a terrible mood right now and at no one but my self.

I don’t know why i just did that. Disregard any and all of it. It was just me getting a few things off of my chest the only way i could figure how. To top it all off no one is on (2 am, go figure) Ok well i feel about > < this much better but it is a start. Later guys.

“Wake me up when September ends” (A perfect quote)  – Green Day